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fitiaVery recently, I decided to sign up for an Ace Attorney gift exchange event. This is actually the first time I've ever done anything like this, because admittedly these two years I've spent hovering around in the fandom have been... more misanthropic than they should've been. Of course, I did get some very kind mutuals over it, but seeing as that my feverish passion for the series coincided with two years of creative drought, I admit that I've felt incredibly dissatisfied with how I was engaging with this particular interest. Fandom, for me, is all about the creative aspect, and so barely having been able to make or finish anything for a series that inspired me to a degree I don't think that any other series had was definitely a contributing factor to the awful burnout I went through a couple weeks ago.
And I think the period in which I could say I was "hyperfixated" on this series has passed, which is also a bit of a bummer. I don't have any less love for it, however, and seeing as that I wanted something to pressure me into going the whole way through in a writing project, I thought that joining this fan event couldn't hurt!
It's great because I have a two month deadline to complete a oneshot of around 2000 words, which is plenty of time! I can't say I'm not nervous, because I'm still not at a point where I'm satisfied with my own writing, I worry about characterization, and I worry about my gift being received politely and through obligation rather than it being something that actually delights the person receiving it. But I also know that improvement doesn't come out of doing nothing, and so I hope that this will be a good learning experience!
And I think the period in which I could say I was "hyperfixated" on this series has passed, which is also a bit of a bummer. I don't have any less love for it, however, and seeing as that I wanted something to pressure me into going the whole way through in a writing project, I thought that joining this fan event couldn't hurt!
It's great because I have a two month deadline to complete a oneshot of around 2000 words, which is plenty of time! I can't say I'm not nervous, because I'm still not at a point where I'm satisfied with my own writing, I worry about characterization, and I worry about my gift being received politely and through obligation rather than it being something that actually delights the person receiving it. But I also know that improvement doesn't come out of doing nothing, and so I hope that this will be a good learning experience!
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Date: 2025-12-27 07:24 pm (UTC)I'm sorry that your experience with that fandom has been misanthropic, that sounds awful :( Happy to read you've met some nice mutuals, however. I hope you can find joy in the fandom, and I wish you lots of positive energy while writing this fic!
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Date: 2025-12-28 02:52 pm (UTC)