Assorted thoughts update #5

[fitia]

I'm gonna be honest, this will be a quick one. Haven't been feeling too hot this week, and I've gotten mood dives at a frequency that tends to cancel out brief instances where I've felt fine -- happy, even -- and I'm thinking that writing a bit might help with it. Or not. We'll see!

• I've been having various fandom thoughts -- specifically, on the question of media, politics, and where the former stands when it comes to where you expend your personal energy and outrage for the latter -- but haven't gotten to a point where I know how to word them, yet. Actually, I've had a lot of trouble wording a lot of thoughts I have that I'd like to share, and it's definitely been among the things that's been killing my mood, recently. Could also be due to period cycle hormones at the moment too, to be fair. But man, it's been feeling Not Great in my head these past few days. One of the moods where you know what exactly it is you want that would cheer you up, but you also know that it's not exactly something you can expect out of anyone. Which sucks. It's a matter of accepting it, but it would honestly be so much easier to accept if it didn't all feel so miserable.

• I watched Train to Busan for the first time yesterday, and I had such a great time with it! I'd planned to write a mini-review for it on here like I did after watching the first Indiana Jones movie, but the aforementioned inability to write and feel articulate about it hit and so I had to nix the idea. But here are my quick thoughts anyways: really perfectly executed zombie apocalypse movie. The train setting was incredibly well-chosen, for how claustrophobic all the action and the dread felt, and while the characters weren't especially groundbreaking they were competently written and engaging! There were a lot of moments I felt should've felt trite in their sentimentality, but the writing really made them work, and got several heart squeezes out of me. It's a movie that makes you feel really bad the whole way through, but in a good way. No wonder I've seen this be highly recommended everywhere, it really is that good.

Really hoping I get back to the point where my hormones are in better balance so I can go back to like... remembering that there's enjoyment to be had in life more frequently, instead of feeling constantly miserable.